At the Last Supper one who shared food with Jesus “raised his heel” against him. We know that was Judas, but we are not sure as to what eventually happed to Judas. Matthew wrote this
“Judas, his betrayer, seeing that Jesus had been condemned, deeply regretted what he had done. He returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders, saying, ‘I have sinned in betraying innocent blood.’ They said, ‘What is that to us? See to it yourself.’ Flinging he money into the temple, he departed and went off and hanged himself.” (Matt. 27, 3-5)
St. Luke wrote something different in the ACTS OF THE APOSTLES. “He bought a parcel of land with the wages of his iniquity, and falling headlong, he burst open in the middle, and all his insides spilled out.” (Acts, 1/18)
There is a story about the final destination of Judas. It went like this. A man was about to be canonized as a saint when someone found where the man had once written that without a doubt Judas was burning in hell. The man’s canonization was canceled because it put a limit on God’s mercy. The church believes that God’s mercy extends farther than any person’s sins.
I think that someone made up that story, but it is as true as anything in the Bible. God forgives anyone who asks for forgiveness. That is true for anyone committing suicide. There is truth in the old saying, “Between the saddle and the ground, forgiveness was sought, and forgiveness found,”