I was taken with yesterday’s Gospel story of John leaping in his mother’s womb when Mary and Jesus came in. I would like to have that kind or reaction to Jesus. The other day when I stood holding up the host before Communion I saw one face lifted up with deep love, and I thought, “I’d like to be as loving as that.”
I have been playing around with the idea of stirring up more real love for the Lord, and something came to me today.
For several months now I have been meditating each day on the phrases in the first chapter of John’s Gospel. I number the phrases like this: 1. “In the beginning.” 2. “Was the Word.” 3. “The Word was with God, and the Word was God.” 4. “All things came to be through him, and nothing came to be without him.”
The thought that number 4 usually generates in me is that the Father, looking at his mirror image in the Son, finds there images he incorporates into creatures.
Today that phrase generated a new thought for me. It was this: as John said, “God is love.” What the Father, Son, and Spirit were doing for all eternity was exchanging love. So, God created for one purpose. It was to spread around what he found lovable in himself.
I was walking down a neighboring street when that thought came to me. Looking around at cloud, and flowers, and symmetrical constructions; and listening to birds I thought, “These things are imperfect reflections of the lovable aspects of God.Lately I have been loving the world so much that I have not wanted to die, but the ideas God gave me today make me feel that in God I will find the much more beautiful originals of these things I love here.